Assume nothing

i should be in the bus right now.. or standing @ the bus stop waiting for 117… but i woke up and just went on the pc.. and i dont want to goto algebra at all. i’ve skipped that class so many times. will have to study really hard for the exam. heres the schedule :

01st – 75108 Physics Lab Exam
11th – 69117 Algebra
13th – 95102 C Programming
18th – 69102 Calculus
19th – 18100 English
24th – 95106 Java Programming
26th – 75108 Physics

lots of breaks during exams. so thats good. first exam is of physics… last exam is of physics. almost a month left before the exams are finished and am free… well for a while. cuz have to take summer school. probably 69217 algebra and something else. and i also want to work.. make some $, upgrade pc among tons of other things. but as i’ve said earlier, we make so many plans… but rarely act on them.

Romeo Must Die is a highly entertaining movie. the fights are superb.. Jet Li is really good in martial arts.. i wonder who will win if Jackie Chan and Jet Li are to fight each other in real life.. they’re both really really fast. They should make a movie with Jackie Chan, Jet Li, Russel Wong, and Chow Yun Fat in it. now thats something everyone will go see. i was looking for some pictures on the Net from the movie.. but didn’t find any good ones. the official website uses Flash Macromedia.. personally i think Flash is just a waste of technology.. i hate it. too slow and annoying. normal HTML is the best. tweak it the way you want.. yes i know it doesn’t have any interactivity with the user/audience… but hey you can always slap on some javascript and still keep it neat, clean and unslippery-ish [Flashed sites feel slippery for some reason]

going through my Inbox [Outlook Express] yesterday, i noticed an e-greeting card sitting there since the 15th of March. and i still hadn’t viewed it. i’m slacking off soo much in emails.. one of my close friends got an email address in pakistan and he emailed me yesterday swearing and all that cuz i replied only once to his gazillion emails.sorry gypsy [if you’re reading this] one more month… and then i’ll be sleeeeepoing and emailing/icq-ing and playing quake. for a while only. i think the summer term starts in may something. there are two terms.. each only one month long. one course in one month. ieech. thats gonna be pretty horrible. right now, one course spans over 4 months.. and its still loads of work. i wonder what summer will be like.

i’ve noticed that i’m too arrogant sometimes. and also really mean. and the second i say something which was inappropriate.. my inner voice yells : “oh you idiot !!! now why did u say that !!”. and i’m vulernable.. so so vulnerable. whenever something happens i end up envying seraph.. that moron doesnt care about anyone around him.. keep to yourself.. ignore the rest.. go home and take refuge into cyberspace. actually, once when i had an argument at home, i closed the door to my room [its always open.. i never close it.. unless am pissed at something or someone] so closed the room, and started playing Quake on full volume.. ho ho ho.. that was fun !!! channel all your anger to some bloke playing on the internet from god-knows-where and get up refreshed and with an empty-care-free mind.

i really have to start eating regularly. ever since january [when ramadhan finished] my eating habits have deteriorated steadily. like tuesday.. i woke up, drank two glasses of juice.. went to university, ate a TacoBell Chicken Burritto + coke, then Sprite, then came home, another glass of juice, then went to the movie with ïÑÐõHåÇkËr and leo.. and ate tons of popcorn there. home and another pepsi and thats it for the day. now isnt that pathetic ? and right now.. woke up and havent had breakfast yet. thats why my mom hates to leave us alone at home.

back in saudia, two of my friends were really really close to their brothers. arslan, romi, and jojji…. always together. and then ammar and yasir…. and now here its dumpty and mythist. but its really awkward for me.. i mean.. every person is different right.. everyone has a different personality.. and u know that you can talk to person A about subject M but not talk to person B about M. and if A and B happen to be siblings… and also really close.. then naturally B will know about M. and thats what you wanted to avoid.. and believe me… if you want to keep a secret.. dont tell it to anyone. thats the bitter lesson i learned in highschool… a secret is no longer a secret if anyone else knows about it. cuz the way this world is now… very few ppl wud keep it to themselves. this is what happens… person C is your best friend.. someone you trust.. and so you tell C about subject N. and C also has another best friend, D. so C goes to D and theyre talking about whatever and then they stumble upon subject N. and C will say to D, guess what blahblah told me.. but you have to promise me that you wont tell anyone. and D promises. and C tells D because C trusts D and knows that D will not blab to anyone.. but D also has a best friend, person E. and so D tells it to E after extracting another so-called promise.. and before you know it, everyone knows everything there is to know about N. and somewhere along this chain.. ppl added whatever they wanted.. and if you just cannot keep it in yourself and just have to tell someone.. then go to some chat room and blab away. or to someone on icq.

actually highschool was a big learning experience for me. i had recently moved from saudia.. and to canada.. different people.. different moods.. different everything. and to switch to this kind of culture and surrounding was not easy… you try to find your place and do a lot of stupid things along the way. and thats what i did. i remember sitting in the computer labs in merivale with boboodi way back in 97 and boboodi saved the day by telling me something about subject O. shivers run down my spine when i think of what wouldve happened if i hadnt met him there at that time… ieech.

gonna go eat.. today is a long day in uni.. classes from 1030 – 800.

== 08:19pm

watching your plans being reduced to nothing in front of you is not fun
watching decisions being made in front of you is not fun if you oppose them
watching people console you by saying : “but ofcourse thats our last option. we will try our best to stay here” is not fun either
just say it
stop playing around
and ofcourse i’m expected to “understand”
and everyone has to “sacrifice” something
and life is “all about moving”
and “the campus is so beautiful that you’ll like it instantly”



03:52 am
why cant i goto sleep ? i need sleep.. everyone needs sleep.. and yet i cannot force myself to goto sleep… i just lie there starring at the ceiling.. and then come back on the pc after a while.. i know i need sleep.. i shud get 7 or 8 hours of sleep everyda.. and yet it never works out like that.. and then on weekends i sleep for 12 hours or more. and thats refreshing :o))

i bought some earphones the other day. theyre called “earhuggers” heres a pic of what they look like :

i dont think i’m gonna be updating this page later today. cuz i have to start coding that 106 java assignment.. and thats gonna take a long long time. and i dont want to stay up all night on tuesday doing that.. oh i also have work tuesday. yay it cant get any more hectic than that can it ? well.. off i go now.. hopefully will fall asleep soon. bye

10:56 am
hehe.. am editing this page using Microsfot Visual J++. these machines in Herzberg Physics Computer labs dont seem to have Frontpage installed on them.. but Visual J++ seems fine too.. it might change the meta tags of this page… but who cares about those.. oh.. my jacket is too warm.. and too thick.. i was like sweating when i came here in the lab.. haha poor guy beside me must be smelling nice smells… wait thats disgracing myself… heh nope i aint smelling =P ok just found the first annoying thing about this program.. i changed the font of only the smily face but when i started writing the next word which was “ok”, it was writing it in red bold fonts.. sux

i had algebra right now and then went to get a hot chocolate.. had an encounter with hyundai.. hehe i call him that.. its this guy in Carleton who doesnt know who i am by face but he wants to met me for some reason… weird ppl in this world these days.. his reason for it is god knows what.. funny thing is, i know who he is.. but he aint 100% sure.. i let him think that i was someone else for like a month or so… and then finally when it was just too too hillarious i told him i aint that guy you think i am. hahah.. the response was : ” kewl ” [lol] and now today as i was walking towards the place to buy hot chocolate he was was sitting on some bench working.. and then looked up and started to look back down but then looked back up.. hehehe.. i, on the other, hand just kept walking as if everything was normal and that i dont know anyone in my field of vision… but surely i’m gonna get an icq msg today saying “were you near the library at this hour ?” i dont think i’ll give him a staright yes/no [its too funny to stop this madness by giving him a definite answer] but as alidhooh once said i think i will “lie without lying” which is a pretty bad habit by the way… its decieving the other person

by the way, alidhooh woke me up today… he got off work at 6 something and then took the bus here and reached my house by 7 am.. and then woke me up.. i remember him messing around with my Multimedia Cds and i think he borrowed Sixth Sense and Frontpage 98… dont entirely remember what cds it were.. and then after a couple o minutes.. after picking up his bag, he left.. and i went back to sleep for 45 minutes… yep i eventually slept last nite..have calculus class in 15 minutes or so…. lalalalal ok this is enough.. later

Funny Story Of The Day :: am back on the pc after a couple of hours.. thats funny
Question Of The Day :: why cant i goto sleep ????????????
Quote Of The Day :: “everyone needs sleep” – [sikander]
Fact Of The Day :: everyone needs sleep
Sad News Of The Day :: i cant sleep