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— dude at u of t says : u’ll hear from us in a week.. they wanted my highschool transcripts.
— the everlasting dilemma : should i ? shouldnt i ? should i ? shouldnt i ? [former wins all the time… till now]
— got a call out of the blue _ quantam managment services _ government job _ security clearance _ “no ?”
— so interview at 3 pm _ canada trust = $5 in quarters
— got directions from maps.infoseek.com
— it was kewl.. home and then get ready for school [geez]
— jijjil was there.. so asked him to send me the stuff later on.. he said he’ll scan and email [heh technology =P]
— and so went to library to get some p.g. wodehouse novels
— replay those 2 seconds anytime anywhere and i’ll still say : hell ya !!!
— quite interesting.. opens up like a gazillion worlds & quadrotillion possibilities [thats what makes life so damn interesting :o) ]
— first look is fine… everyone understands… but second ? peek-a-boo.. i saw you !!
— walked home from uni all the way to my house… and it took exactly one hour [checked the time heh]
— rained, actually poured, on the way home.. soaked to the bone.. play it to the bone
— alladvantage, myadvantage, fake surf, getpaid4, gotoworld, sheesh
— spilled a whole glass of coke on my keyboard… the “T” key went dead soon.. then the “Enter” key stopped too
— and then “A” and “S” and “G”
— so today bought a new keyboard.. but i dont really like this one… its toooo…. soft i think.. the keys i mean
— tomorrow going to AMC Kanata theatre to watch Gone In 60 Seconds.. tinku says movie is “friggin nice”

soccer was really fun. all the merivale ppl were there.. met all of ’em and then played and we were losing 1 – 0 right till the end.. but then shooker passed the ball to one of my team-mates by mistake.. u know how it happens.. everyone’s playing and the other person would start saying “here here” and u just pass the ball to him thinking hes in your team.. but hes from the opposite team instead.. and was just tricking you.. everyone falls for that. remember robin and ishmael ? they were wearing the exact same clothes.. black jean and white t-shirt… one was in my team, the other in the other team.. and i passed to the wrong one a couple of times hehe. ya.. so we got the pass, and then goall !!! and so its tied at one-one.. and then managed to score yet another goal… yay.. but by then most of the players had left and so it doesnt really count as a winning goal.. but its fun nonetheless… oh stupidly.. i just went to play without eating anything.. like when u came online, i had woken around then.. and then just took a bath and then left to play.. drank a coke on the way thinking that i wont be hugnry cuz i ate a _lot_ the nite before.. but i was soo hungry.. and got a headache too.. stupid stupid mistake.

this teacher in merivale.. he caught me in the basement near the computer labs and said ‘ youre not from this school ‘ and i wasnt.. and its illegal to enter the school like that.. i just went in to get a drink of water.. so he told me to leave rite away cuz i was trespassing and if he sees me again he’ll take me to the main office and then they will ” deal with me “. hehe..

i came home.. ate and then read a novel.. went on the pc.. played.. and then at 7 started watching a hockey match between Phillidelphia Flyers and Pittsburgh Penguins.. normally a hockey match has 3 periods.. each 20 minutes long. since these are the quarter finals.. if no one wins, then they go into overtime.. those are 20 minutes too.. only thing is, whoever scores first in the over time wins the game.. the penguins scored first and then the flyers scored in the 2nd period.. and then match went into overtime.. no one scored.. another overtime.. no score.. another one.. no result.. and then another.. still no score.. and then in the fifth overtime, the flyers scored and won the game.. so i got up at 2:30 in the morning….. hehehe.. 7.5 hours long… it was the third longest game in the history of ice-hockey.. the top two were in 1933, and 1936. it was a really good match tho.. i enjoyed it..

digital tv sux.. when u flip channels, it take two long seconds for the screen to appear. ugh !!!

today was garbage day.. here are some numbers :

05 – Coke 2L
04 – Diet Coke 2L
03 – Coke 650 mL
23 – Coke 355 mL [can]
18 – Diet Coke 355 mL [can]
01 – Pepsi 355 mL [can]

those are the number of bottles / cans i had to fit in the recycle box when putting the garbage outside for collection by the umm garbage people [municipality something or another]

friday… woke up at 330 pm. laundry day for me today. had to use AMEX again.. cuz i forgot the debit card @home. NCS says they’ll get back to me about my job there. i called and asked if they wanted me to come on Saturday. oh and my ex-employer had a baby girl last week :o)

the ILOVEYOU virus [well technically its a worm] has caused $1 billion in damages [heard that on cnn] sheesh.. originated from phillipines.. spread all over the world.. and infected only MS Outlook Express. haha.. funny.. people dont learn do they ? Melissa virus was an email attachment too.. and everyone just opened it.. and now this was an email attachment too.. and people still opened it. losers.

i should be in the bus right now.. or standing @ the bus stop waiting for 117… but i woke up and just went on the pc.. and i dont want to goto algebra at all. i’ve skipped that class so many times. will have to study really hard for the exam. heres the schedule :

01st – 75108 Physics Lab Exam
11th – 69117 Algebra
13th – 95102 C Programming
18th – 69102 Calculus
19th – 18100 English
24th – 95106 Java Programming
26th – 75108 Physics

lots of breaks during exams. so thats good. first exam is of physics… last exam is of physics. almost a month left before the exams are finished and am free… well for a while. cuz have to take summer school. probably 69217 algebra and something else. and i also want to work.. make some $, upgrade pc among tons of other things. but as i’ve said earlier, we make so many plans… but rarely act on them.

Romeo Must Die is a highly entertaining movie. the fights are superb.. Jet Li is really good in martial arts.. i wonder who will win if Jackie Chan and Jet Li are to fight each other in real life.. they’re both really really fast. They should make a movie with Jackie Chan, Jet Li, Russel Wong, and Chow Yun Fat in it. now thats something everyone will go see. i was looking for some pictures on the Net from the movie.. but didn’t find any good ones. the official website uses Flash Macromedia.. personally i think Flash is just a waste of technology.. i hate it. too slow and annoying. normal HTML is the best. tweak it the way you want.. yes i know it doesn’t have any interactivity with the user/audience… but hey you can always slap on some javascript and still keep it neat, clean and unslippery-ish [Flashed sites feel slippery for some reason]

going through my Inbox [Outlook Express] yesterday, i noticed an e-greeting card sitting there since the 15th of March. and i still hadn’t viewed it. i’m slacking off soo much in emails.. one of my close friends got an email address in pakistan and he emailed me yesterday swearing and all that cuz i replied only once to his gazillion emails.sorry gypsy [if you’re reading this] one more month… and then i’ll be sleeeeepoing and emailing/icq-ing and playing quake. for a while only. i think the summer term starts in may something. there are two terms.. each only one month long. one course in one month. ieech. thats gonna be pretty horrible. right now, one course spans over 4 months.. and its still loads of work. i wonder what summer will be like.

i’ve noticed that i’m too arrogant sometimes. and also really mean. and the second i say something which was inappropriate.. my inner voice yells : “oh you idiot !!! now why did u say that !!”. and i’m vulernable.. so so vulnerable. whenever something happens i end up envying seraph.. that moron doesnt care about anyone around him.. keep to yourself.. ignore the rest.. go home and take refuge into cyberspace. actually, once when i had an argument at home, i closed the door to my room [its always open.. i never close it.. unless am pissed at something or someone] so closed the room, and started playing Quake on full volume.. ho ho ho.. that was fun !!! channel all your anger to some bloke playing on the internet from god-knows-where and get up refreshed and with an empty-care-free mind.

i really have to start eating regularly. ever since january [when ramadhan finished] my eating habits have deteriorated steadily. like tuesday.. i woke up, drank two glasses of juice.. went to university, ate a TacoBell Chicken Burritto + coke, then Sprite, then came home, another glass of juice, then went to the movie with ïÑÐõHåÇkËr and leo.. and ate tons of popcorn there. home and another pepsi and thats it for the day. now isnt that pathetic ? and right now.. woke up and havent had breakfast yet. thats why my mom hates to leave us alone at home.

back in saudia, two of my friends were really really close to their brothers. arslan, romi, and jojji…. always together. and then ammar and yasir…. and now here its dumpty and mythist. but its really awkward for me.. i mean.. every person is different right.. everyone has a different personality.. and u know that you can talk to person A about subject M but not talk to person B about M. and if A and B happen to be siblings… and also really close.. then naturally B will know about M. and thats what you wanted to avoid.. and believe me… if you want to keep a secret.. dont tell it to anyone. thats the bitter lesson i learned in highschool… a secret is no longer a secret if anyone else knows about it. cuz the way this world is now… very few ppl wud keep it to themselves. this is what happens… person C is your best friend.. someone you trust.. and so you tell C about subject N. and C also has another best friend, D. so C goes to D and theyre talking about whatever and then they stumble upon subject N. and C will say to D, guess what blahblah told me.. but you have to promise me that you wont tell anyone. and D promises. and C tells D because C trusts D and knows that D will not blab to anyone.. but D also has a best friend, person E. and so D tells it to E after extracting another so-called promise.. and before you know it, everyone knows everything there is to know about N. and somewhere along this chain.. ppl added whatever they wanted.. and if you just cannot keep it in yourself and just have to tell someone.. then go to some chat room and blab away. or to someone on icq.

actually highschool was a big learning experience for me. i had recently moved from saudia.. and to canada.. different people.. different moods.. different everything. and to switch to this kind of culture and surrounding was not easy… you try to find your place and do a lot of stupid things along the way. and thats what i did. i remember sitting in the computer labs in merivale with boboodi way back in 97 and boboodi saved the day by telling me something about subject O. shivers run down my spine when i think of what wouldve happened if i hadnt met him there at that time… ieech.

gonna go eat.. today is a long day in uni.. classes from 1030 – 800.

== 08:19pm

watching your plans being reduced to nothing in front of you is not fun
watching decisions being made in front of you is not fun if you oppose them
watching people console you by saying : “but ofcourse thats our last option. we will try our best to stay here” is not fun either
just say it
stop playing around
and ofcourse i’m expected to “understand”
and everyone has to “sacrifice” something
and life is “all about moving”
and “the campus is so beautiful that you’ll like it instantly”